weekend Saturday, Jul 10 2010 

I wish everyone an enjoyable weekend..

“I have always imagined Thursday, Jul 8 2010 

that Paradise will be a kind of library.” Jorge Luis Borges

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I love reading..

I love books.. I love crafting ..

but I don’t like my library..

I didn’t..

Three  laminate freestanding bookcases aligned by the wall..this is not the  library of my dreams..

The wall was 37 cm wider  than the bookshelves were.. without a much needed side support and  loaded with books they were kind of shaky.

The covers of my books were all shades of all colours and when I arranged them  in  alphabetical order .. a whole wall of mismatched colours  looked totally chaotic.. As a bonus some of them were discoloured or too worn out to be on the show.. there were even some eaten by the parakeet we once owned .. intellectual pets are my fav..

To improve the view..  I had tried to arrange my books by colour.. and then I couldn’t find any particular one  when  I needed it immediately..

I tried to add accessories and  pictures with  no satisfying result.. because each time I tried to pull a book or to dust.. all of them started to shake and my accessories were falling.. sometimes ending on my head =/..

I once saw a library in a french decoration magazine.. it was a wall to wall simple bookshelf system.. all the books were covered with white paper and the titles and authors handwritten on the back.. minimalistic..  simple and beautiful..

Then I started noticing  around the blogland some accessories made from old book pages ..  I opened a folder and started to save many of these creative inspiring bookcrafting pictures..

Finally I knew what I had to do.. a bookpage covered library .. and covered books.. that would be perfect for me..

FİRST WEEK SUNDAY_MONDAY

I already had the material in the basement.. a friend gave me some pocket books..old  detective novels she found in her attic.. the pages were fragile and were falling apart..  I have started to glue them on randomly using wallpaper glue trying to get rid of air bubbles using a plastic card.. the pages were so fragile that they tore down .. so I had to use my fingers to squeeze out the bubles..

I choose chapter numbers at the top of each unit .. ten eleven and twelwe..don’t ask me why =P.. I brushed a generous amount of glue all over.. when the shelves were totally dry.. which is after 24 hours .. I applied two coats of acrylic varnish to protect the shelves from wear and tear.. and pushed them back at the wall where they used to be..  I measured the gap between the library and the wall..

TUESDAY

I had some old shelves in stock and I asked a handy friend  to cut these at  measure for me .. which he didn’t or couldn’t do until next thursday.. I mean ten days later..

In the mean time  I have also covered an Ikea Fira box that fitted at the narrow space between the shelves.. and varnished..

THE SECOND WEEK .. SUNDAY AND ALL WEEK DAYS

I have had to deal with the garden because of a parasit alert.. had to take the cat to the veterinary.. had to beautify myself and go to my son’s graduation party.. I had to deal with many unwanted and unplanned facts of life.. and living in a house where every horizontal surface is loaded with books..   eight hundred something books ..

whenever I found time.. I was  making simple fold-on covers from craft paper.. I poured myself some vine.. than choose a dvd.. uhmm many dvd’s.. and made the covers.. and wrote the author’s name and title of the books with my favorite en.. purple =) .. kids started to make fun of me.. the good part of it I was piling them back in alphabetical order..

THURSDAY..

I continued the book covering activity ..but as I got my shelves back.. I covered them .. and set them aside to dry..

FRIDAY.. MORNİNG .. varnished the new shelves before leaving for work..

EVENING.. happy as a puppy came home from work.. to finish this library.. an emergency occured.. and I had to go on a trip.. for the whole week-end..

THİRD WEEK..

Two pre-prommed dinners out.. one night of migraine and another reason I don’t even remember kept me back from finishing..

I am getting used to live with books around.. I am affraid to start to think “who needs a library anyway”..

THİRD WEEK..  SATURDAY..

As soon as I entered the house.. without even changing my clothes I started to fix the new shelves..

I planned to use  shelf pins to place the new shelves ..  shelf pins ( in the photo below) are made of a nail and a plastic part to create and antislip effect and extra weight bearing surface for the shelves..

I usually have this kind of  things in my craft box.. but this special evening.. back from work and eager to finish my library I noticed I ran out of it.. no surprise.. =P

Small excuses  cannot stop me when I am so motivated..

I used some short nails and some wooden beads from an old necklace.. to create my own shelf pins.. they worked okay.. no better they worked great.. because the beats were a shade of lilac.. all shades of purple lilac are my favorite colours..

I made one  mistake though.. no .. two mistakes..

first I did not check if the gap was the same width all along the shelves.. so I discovered that the new shelves were perfect for the top but were too large for the bottom.. uneven floor problem =/..

The Ikea box looked smaller than the shelves and  this lapse brought forward  the second mistake.. I tried to push the box down to the bottom.. but as I tried to do this after I placed the two upper shelves and even some glass accessories over . I am rather enthousiastic =P.. Can you guess what happened..

Yes .. the box was sooo wide for the bottom.. and the two upper shelves and my accessories came crushing down..

A depressing moment for me.. I cleaned and throw away the broken glass containers from everywhere.. gathered the shells and pebbles and sea glasses that were everywhere.. applied dressing to some cuts and scratches over my hands and arm.. and then replaced the shelves and box at their place on the top….

perfectly placed.. but I was too tired to put  the books back on the library..

SUNDAY..

I replaced the books.. I also have a notebook to keep the list of my books..I had already made it from an old book cover.. thanks to  the tutorial I had seen at justsomethingimade blog.. a notebook covered inside an old bookcover ..(I will show it’s pictures on another post) I tried to keep listing while I ranged but couldn’t deal with  all and  delayed this for  later and calmer evenings..  I finished covering the last books..

I have ranged  my bookmark collection in one of the drawers.. thrown maps and info books from places I have  visited in another one..

The bottom still needs some shelves but it will come in no time.. or  a small chest of drawers will fit in there.. time will show..or maybe some other idea will come.. who knows??..

I  have arranged the books in categories.. novels and stories.. memories and history.. women’s human wright.. arts and crafts and not-read ..

I made some labels to sign these categories..

FINALLY..

at the end of a month .. I have my books on shelves.. it seems funny to see the surfaces of my tables and dressers.. =P..

I also have prepared some vintage labels for some of my displays ..

I still have ideas.. some graphic art to display on the wall space over the library..

I even could make some foating book shelves from my old books.. and have to repair the cover of the “les miserables” in piece I bought sometimes ago..

This seems to be  an ongoing everlasting project..

Does anybody else’s project take such a long time ??

crafting-reasoning Wednesday, Jul 7 2010 

when you settle down somewhere for a long time..it is hard to leave and say good bye .. this is as true in real life as in blogland..

I started to blog five years ago..

before that  I was an avid reader of craft and garden blogs.. then I started my own blog.. I had to be about crafts.. but emotional and health problems interfered and I left it as it is and moved to another blog .. where I wrote about how I managed to stay sane in the middle of my problems .. how I tried to handle them.. accomodate myself .. I was fed up with crafts.. didn’t even touch nor look any single project..

my new blog was the same name .. in my language and on anouther bloh server.. I was writing about how I thought I should be for not being hurt.. than I  became that woman..

I made lots of friend .. was a regular blog writer.. about life and small facts that we usually miss while living our daily routine..

It was a great cure.. I met some of my blog friends and became very good friends in real life.. they knew more about me than people I was living with.. than my real-real life friends.. I am still writing on that blog.. but the woman I created there is not a crafting kind of woman.. last year I have finally told them my whole story.. giving all the links I had.. a crafting blog .. a gardening one.. another craft blog in english.. many huh.. many pages of my life book..

but I have finally understood one thing in life..

if people you love.. do things that will hurt you..  hurt you bad.. make you bleed your life out.. .. make you suffer..

you cannot react by changing yourself.. by killing the woman who you used to be.. and whom they thought to know..

you cannot handle problems by faking a personality..

you are who you are.. as they say in my country.. “character doesn’t expire before you expire”.. if you are hurt .. it is because the person who hurts you choose to hurt you.. deliberately..

so I am back to crafting again.. I see some high hopes in the eyes of people who have hurt me.. they might believe this is a “coming back” but no.. this is only my coming back to myself..

this is only my taking over of my space and time.. before I get rid .. finally and hopefully.. people who have hurt me.. who made me believe a domestic and warm and recycling and motherly woman is not desired as a person and woman..I knew that it was not “me” but “he” who  is faulty.. but couldn’t stop being severe towards myself.. couldn’t stop living as though I didn’t care about how they affected me.. acting..

now I am starting all over again.. this time I don’t want to react as a bouncing ball.. this is giving them so much importance.. this is letting the reins of your life under  their control..

I have to figure out.. what I want about my real life.. my real desires.. me myself.. so ı have taken out my crafting stock and my creativity out from the deep drawers I have kept them for some years.. I am happy that I did not throw them away definitly..

this blog will hopefully be a crafting-reasoning resume of mine.. I decided it to be in english.. because I have so many craft blogs I admire daily..  on my google reader list..

here we go again..

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